Friday, January 28, 2011

Artificial Sunshine!!

Sometimes in life we have no idea what is around the corner! We often have no idea what will happen to us, what decisions we will be faced with, who we will meet or even where we will go. There simply is no way to plan for it. This past month I have been through a whirlwind of unexpected emotions, new friends, thought provoking decisions, and ups and downs of unexplainable measure. However, through it all I can say that the one thing that has helped me the most is the choice I have made to be happy and my friends that have supported me in that choice. Life is too short to worry about all the unexpected things that you cannot plan for. You have to take one day at a time and realize that this is your life. You need to do what makes you happy. Don't worry about all the fluffy detail or the analyzing that you could do for hours about any decision. Simply do what makes YOU happy. In one of my darkest moments one of my closest friends Nikki Saenz said to me, "Dall, sometimes we get all caught up in the thoughts of everyone else and we worry so much about pleasing them rather than doing what makes us happy. You can only do that for so long before you drive yourself crazy, and before you know it, you wont even recognize who you are." Good advice from and amazing friend. I love you Nikki!
This morning I woke up feeling a little overwhelmed with things to do, decisions to make, and places to go. But as soon as I realized where I was, who I was with and what made me
happy, I also realized that I was already happy, and all of that uneasiness went away and I knew today was a great day! My amazing friend Mike was sad the other day and when I asked him what was wrong he said, "I need sunshine, then everything will be alright." :) (this is why I love Mike) I laughed and agreed emphatically suggesting we go tanning. Ha Ha But then I began to think, Sunshine...? is it sunshine that we need or is sunshine just a way for us to realize that everything will be ok and that we are happy. Ya know like a sort of sign. Then it clicked, Sometimes it takes realizing that you are already happy to be happy:) From the day I had that conversation with Mike until now I have been focusing on my artificial sunshine. So here are a few things from my list of sunshine and I hope all of you have a list of your sunshine so that when the time comes and you feel down and out you can have a little sunshine in your lives and realize that you are already happy and there is no need to worry!
Sunshine;
-Bright clothes
-Amazing Friends
-Nikki Saenz and Michael Garrett
-Fun Family
-Great Movies
-Sleepovers
-Health
-Glee
-Laughing:)
-Spontaneous road trips!
-My brain
and so so much more:)