Thursday, November 12, 2009

The roller coaster we call life :)

I know it has been forever since I have written in my blog but i feel a need to get my feelings out there and who ever can benefit from them then great:)
So I was at my Apt. the other day and I walked past my room-mate Bryant playing Roller Coaster Tycoon.  Ha Ha don't worry he has a life and is a really cool kid don't judge him for that. (Love you Bryant). Anyways,  it got me thinking about all the ups and downs in life and how it is so hard sometimes when you are at that low point to know you will eventually come back up.   I have had some experiences over this past year that just about did me in.  I really didn't know if i could keep going and had no idea where i was going in life.  But i write this today to tell everyone that no matter what happens, no mater how low you get or how helpless you feel, you will always come back up.  Just as a roller coaster does:)  
Life is hard and at times impossible.  However, it is at these times when you really get a chance to look deep into your soul and discover who you really are.  You may be surprised at the answer, you may not even like it.  But be proud to be you.  If there needs to be some tweaks and changes then make them, but never regret who you are.  
If there is one thing i have learned it is to live loudly and wear your heart on your sleeve.  You are you.  YOU make your own decisions, YOU deal with the consequences, YOU choose to be happy, YOU have complete control over your life and what you want to make of it.  There is no sense in getting sucked into the ever so popular view of I can't.  Don't hold back at all and don't let those dips and dives in life through you off.  They only last a short time, just as if you are on a roller coaster.  But remember those drops and curves are often what we remember most about the roller coaster.  This is the same in life.  Don't forget those hard time. Remember them and move forward.  
There will be so many times in life that you feel you can't go on.  You may feel so alone, scared, confused, but i promise you, if you just keep moving things will work out.
 I could never had made it to today if it wasn't for the most amazing family ever.  My mom and dad have never given up on me and it has meant so much to me. Thanks.  I also owe so so so much to my friends.  At times I am sure I have put them in awkward places and they didn't know quite how to help or what to say but I knew I could always go them for help and support and they would be there for me.  You guys saved me thanks.